“the woman who follows the crowd will most likely go no further than the crowd,
the woman who walks alone is likely to find herself places no one has ever been before”
life is funny.
we spend all this time doing things that we think we are supposed to do + less times doing the things we are meant to do.
why do we hold ourselves back from the things that light up our hearts?
what are we afraid of?
people always say follow your gut, but i think sometimes our gut is about security.
i think our heart knows whats best.
i made a hard decision yesterday, one which has been lingering in my mind and heart for sometime.
i decided to walk away from teaching for awhile. its has been a difficult decision for many reason, the primary reason being the kids i love working with them /sharing the creative process, questioning why i spent time and money to pursue my masters in art education not to use it and of course the obvious – security of work.
but the thing is, the teaching was somewhat always about security – the fear of starting a business in photography after graduating pushed me into graduate school so that i could have the job security if this crazy dream didn’t work out. i know teaching art was something that would give me security but also let me share my creative gifts with others. it was a compromise of sorts.
security is a funny thing.
i think its something society has instilled in us, job security, financial security, relationship security, the security of our homes and cars.
security : the quality or state of being secure as a : freedom from danger : safety b : freedom from fear or anxiety c : freedom from the prospect of being laid off
i think its interesting that the definition of security talks about being a “state of being” and “freedom FROM” external sources.
i hate that definition. i dont agree with the way society expects us to live. life should be about experience, about striving to be the best version of ourselves, it should be about the pursuit of meaning and sharing it with others.
real security should be found in ourselves. shouldn’t we have freedom IN ourselves and not FROM external sources?
i would be lying if i didn’t say that being able to make a living isn’t important to me, but i do believe that when we are truly living in the most honest way for ourselves and we are striving to pursue that with everything we know and all that we are that its inevitable that we will find a way.
i can’t compromise my time any longer, i am taking a leap of faith, flying on my own unique path and want to share it with others.
if you have something you want to say, something you want to do. why are you holding yourself back?
OLLIN (to move and act with all of your heart)